Some Pieces of Us
Oktober 13, 2021credit : pinterest |
“What once lost can now be found,
we were the lost but now we found” – Night
Terrors of 1927
As what the majority of wise people always said, life
is all about journey. So does finding ourselves. Finding something new from a
scratch, or finding something that once gone for awhile. Some people genuinely
collect what they like and don’t and put it all in one book or journal—every page
resonates a lot to who they really are. Some people have the ability to talk it
off, share it with anyone else. I always find it beautiful when I see someone
talk about what they like with a star in their eyes, hand shaking so excitedly,
and soft giggle at the end. Or when they tell about things they dislike,
tossing off negative energy, being raw and pure. Isn’t it awesome that we all
have a little piece of us in things on this universe?
That being said, it’s like, when you can no longer
accessing me, or when I’m no longer around, I’m still sitting in my favorite
seat on bus that I used to take when I was in junior high school, I’m still
humming that chorus of my favorite song, and you can also find me on every
paragraphs of my favorite novels.
The other things is, somehow our piece of us sometimes
can go as the clock ticking. We ain’t into those Nickelodeon cartoons forever,
but someday in our mid 20s at the end of our busy day, we would just come
across that one scene of Spongebob and find our five-years-old soul at Sunday
morning, with grin all over our face, and we would remember that feeling of
joy and freedom. Or maybe that silly
song that we used to hear on repeat after our first heartbreak. Back then, it
feels painfully good to hear those songs, but now maybe we would just smile at those
memories, realizing our teenager-self had handled it well, even though they
didn’t think so at that time. In conclusion, I think it’s actually pretty beneficial to be
reminded of what we were like, what we were aspiring to be, and sometimes
reflecting on it can help us to overcome what we need to tackle today. And sometimes,
the problem of growing up is.. there will be a phase when we feel like we
lose ourselves.
You just wake up in the morning and feel so strange. That
rhetorical question, what am I doing now? knocking your head and you
just won’t answer it. And everything.. just feels.. unconnected. I don’t know
how to describe it well but I think everyone had that kind of experience, maybe
it due to monotonous life or indeed it’s time to feel that way. I took it as a
sign to develop more about myself. I watched my comfort series and finding new
songs to listen to, engaged with people.. and just don’t let myself running
empty. Days later, I accidentaly see myself on the mirror while humming and
casually moving my body with my favorite song at that time, and I went like, “Oh
girl, I know you. Glad we meet again.”
It doesn’t have to be ‘media’ or ‘culture’ like music and
movies. I assume that what we actually need sometimes is to reliving some
phases in our life where we feel certain feelings, to understand that we have
going through a lot of things, and it took damn long time to finally be here. We
would scattered into pieces sometimes, we would feel happy as hell or nothing
at all, that’s fine, ‘cause like the moon, it’s okay to not be whole every day.
To lost and find way back to ourselves. We’re just human after all.
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